The Giant Brick Wall

Three of the four immediate family members in my household were born in August. I, in March. Yep, I’m the odd woman out. I don’t like something that everybody else likes and I’m usually doing something nobody else does, usually off doing my own thing. I’ve always been a very independent person. Yeah, I hit that Middle School/High School stage where I thought I didn’t need anyone else besides myself and Justin Bieber and quickly found out otherwise. 

It was after my boyfriend passed away that I really went off on my own. Spiritually, mentally and in many ways, physically, too. I didn’t stop believing in God or anything. I knew He was there, but I gave Him the silent treatment and Satan had me convinced that I didn’t really need Him.
I was still in High School and taking classes at the nearby college, but my brain had checked out--I was done. If I wasn’t doing something, or out and about, I was having anxiety attacks, because I wasn’t doing something. I had to be doing something all the time to keep my mind from wandering. I couldn’t let my mind rest for one second, or stop building my giant brick wall I had put up. Because if I did, if I let my mind rest and if I stopped building my wall, I knew I would see that I could no longer do life on my own. I didn’t want to give that up. I thought I was protecting myself, better off doing my own thing. Deep down, I knew I was wrong- that’s why for months it was my goal every day to not let anyone in. I kept building the wall.

I still have those days when I start building my wall again, but there also came a day when I realized my need for other people. Maybe you do, too? As Christ followers, we are meant to do life together. Life? Well, God built it so that we can’t do it alone. At least not the right way. Once you realize this, you’ll find that your walls will come down. 

Megan Berckhemer
Scripture references from NIV unless otherwise noted.

Based on My Need for My Church on July 23rd, 2016 - Watch Sermon

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